No, it isn't, yet one FOOL is PLAYING the SECOND FIDDLE

(clearing throat) Hello there! I'm happy and feel grateful that I can share my story with you guys. Hopefully you guys have a nice day right now, be appreciative of that... Okay, let me give some introduction of my part 4 of my story... I have some question to test you guys as following:

-> Firstly, do you guys wonder why there're several people do not make their first move towards their girlfriends or boyfriends?

-> Secondly, do you guys wonder why there're many people do want to have a close relationship ( LOVE ) with others?

-> Thirdly, why there is less people want to express out their feeling of LOVE to someone else yet trying to avoid it as he/she could?

-> And finally, do you guys know what's the feeling when someone else is having the relationship of LOVE towards your love one? Is it Happiness? Sadness? Dissapointment? Romance? Bitterness? Sweetness? Or others?

Okay, let's begin my part 4 now... Read through the passage beneath see whether you have found an answer for each of the questions above, the real story has began...


28th of July, Tuesday, Sunny and Hazy Day

What a bad day, I have to wake up as early as 6.00a.m. for the preparation to school. Hmm... eating a yellowish egg tart, drinking one cup of Milo, and at 6.45 a.m., I sit on my daddy's car and start `our' journey to school ( so lame )... When I reached the school, just as normal, I put my bag aside and ran down the stairscase as fast as I could... LOL, what I'm doing is just walking around the school compound, without purpose, walking everywhere like Mr. Mad Cheang. Hehe, agree to say that I'm mad, doing nonsense, actually I'm waiting for someone who's very very important. Hey man, very obvious till one of my friend, Yong Jie has told me that she'll come at 7.20 a.m. and which stairscase she'll use... Haiz, after he told me, I have two feelings, one is happy because I get some important information; but at the same time, sadness `attacked' my heart as I didn't even know well about her, not enough concerning about her... I should use the word `dissapointment'... Well, so what? I can know well about her, why can't? Yeah, I'm right, but now only I can say this to myself... Still Lack Of Confidence, just like my friend, Wilson Chiong has told me something useful in my life through his English Oral -> CONFIDENCE!!! Through his talk, finally I realized that there's the only thing I lack in my life. Wilson:" Whatever you want to do, you just need to remind yourself with one important phrase `I believe I can do it', and that's the important point of gaining confidence in yourself." Speechless man, the class just cool down, as well as our English teacher. I'm just like a man awoke from sleep, quite a useful speech from him. Sincerely, thanks, Willy! Again, back to the title, I realized that I haven't find the meaning of TRUE LOVE, I misunderstood the meaning...

After the school dismissed, guess what's happenning? Hehe, so obvious, I kept following her until she went up to the stage outside the school, talking with boys... Jealous, sure lah, some people will be jealous when their LOVE one is talking to someone else. At starting, one of my friend is probably my friend, i meant it, but as I'm jealous of what he's doing, chatting with my LOVE one, and eventually, we have became the enemy in LOVE... A cold war starts, the army with the weapon of swords (me) has started a war with the army with the weapon of machine guns (the boy) secretly... Obviously, I lose... As well as the girl too, we have also started our war since I don't know when she had read through my blog or my mind... I can tell you, this is the most bitter part in the LOVE process whoever will meet with, sure it does to everyone before, right? Hehe, not everyone, just those people who have experienced it before, LOL!!! One of my friend, Tan Kok Sheng has told me:" Si Xian, you no need to be jealous, they're just chatting, jealousy will just make your LOVE one feels like no freedom and tension, and as well as yourself." Yep, he's right, but I'm too oblivious to accept it, how to stop one's feeling of jealousy, impossible!!! Hmm... a good advice for me, I should appreciate it... I should... Action speak louder than words, I have to take action before three of us getting hurt in the war. But, I failed to do so, when my mom's fetching them back to home, in the car, I used to eavesdrop on their conversation... Sometimes, even I felt as angry as a wasp, but what can I do is just turning the volume of radio as loud as it could, it works, but FOR WHAT, to pretend not to hear? Crazy man, again I'm doing nonsense, only I realized there's no TRUE LOVE in my life before, yet one FOOL is PLAYING the SECOND FIDDLE...

Well, my story has to stopped here, hopefully you guys enjoy my story X[). Be patient while waiting for my part 5 of the story... Thanks For Reading - - - Please Leave Comment

Is it a TRUE LOVE?

Hey, guys!!! Back now on. My part 2 is too bad and not interesting at all, right? Oh yeah? But for me, I think I had ever wrote a blog such that I can express myself, which is a truthfulness and meaningful for me... Okay, let's tell you guys something that you have never think about, WHAT IS A TRUE LOVE? How you realise that you have or had a TRUE LOVE? Have you think about it? It's a lame question... But you can know about the real meaning of TRUE LOVE through the passage that I had written here. My memory slowly drifted to the past, which is...



17th of July, Friday, Hazy day

Today, I am struggling for exhaustion, and take a very deep breath before entering the school. Before that, I am walking around the school compound as to release my exhaustion and tension too... What is the tension mean here? Umm... I should say that the tension is how to face the girl after my LOVE story in the blog has passed through the whole school... Oh my goodness, what should I do? Tell her the naked truth or just not doing much? Obviously, this is the first time I met this problem, such a fiasco for me...

The bell rang, all my classmates have their own seat and mine their own business. What am I doing? Guess!!! LOL, still day-dreaming in the class... but not having dirty thought, juz think about how to say "hi" to her? Look like a difficult task, "stupid cheang" I said softly to myself but with anger too. I'm angry with what I am thinking in my mind now, just say "hi" is not difficult what, what an idiot am I? C'mon man, what's wrong with me? Still in the state of day-dreaming, the teacher has came in the classroom and started teaching. Another stupid thing I have done is always steal a glance at her, a beautiful, big and attractive eyes, cutie face with a sweet smile. WOW!!! What a nice view, it seems to be the 4th or 5th times I see at her. So sweet and I LOVE it!!! I'll never forget her smile, when I see her smile, my heart will feel the comfort and LOVELY... It will forever entrench into my mind as her smile always haunt in my mind, just like following me wherever I go.

After the school dismissed, carrying the school bag on my shoulder which is damn heavy for me, and walking to the canteen. Sitting down and enjoying my meal, I saw the girl again who is just passed by me, but I didn't say a "hi" word to her, just act like pretentious about anything that happened ( she's transparent)... I quickly turn my head to the other way round, luckily she didn't notice that. After that, I go for the Robotic Club activity, I saw her again, but this time, quite a different now, I noticed her move without any sign of stealing a glance or anything, just a direct sight at her... But, just because the distance is too far, she can't see me till she walked up the stairscase... And haha, the girl and I quickly turn the heads another way round, LOL!!! What's this? Having the mutual affinity? Hmm... may be or may be not. In the state of confusing, she's now out of my sight, where's she going? Without thinking, I quickly ran down the stairscase and `God bless me', I saw her walking along the corridor, and what I can only do is following her... Yea, I did the right thing but still even brave enough to get closer to her. After a meanwhile, I walked away with my lonely shadow, walking around the school compound as I did in the morning, bored... Time passes through is just like crossing over many thousand and thousand miles, and finally the time reached 2.30p.m. It's time to go back home, and now I got to find her as my mom fetch her back... I run back to the corridor that I met her just now, running to the shed beside the canteen, and the whole school compound I had found, but it's none of her shadow... "Where're you?" this sentence keep questioning in my mind, but it seems to be no one can answer it. I felt nervous and more nervous when I found that she's not at the outside of the school. I'm petrified as I'm concern about her safety, and I scold myself of not noticing at her, all's about my fault!!! Finding, finding and finding... the time again pass through the thousand miles... 2.35, 2.40, and eventually 2.45p.m. but it seems to be not succeed, failing and failing, and I go home with the dissapointment... When I reached home, it's like a message sent into me by `God', and Yeah, why don't I called to her handphone!!! Without wasting time, I called her and I found that she had came back to her house... LOL, I took a deep breath at once, and I felt like my heart is more comfort now... My mind can be refreshed finally... hopefully she's always safe and happy too, A LOVELY SMILE on her face everyday and forever!!!

Hehe, you guys will say I might be an idiot but for me, it's quite meaningful to me. Is it a TRUE LOVE in my life? In part 4, you guys will know more about my experience about TRUE LOVE!!! Thanks for reading---Please leave comment.

FIRST LOVE and SECRET CRUSH

Greetings and pleasure to you guys, I'm back!!! Sorry for late to update my blog. Guys, how's the part 1? Is it nice or disgusting? Okay, let's talk about my part 2 now => FIRST LOVE and SECRET CRUSH. Connectivity of part 1 and part 2 will not be such good, and so I need you to pay more attention on it. OK, without wasting time, my story continue with...

In the school, although I'm studying in class 4G, but, at that time, I start to think about her at all the time, not paying attention in the class and sometimes I start to imagine that she's just sitting beside me. Besides that, her cutie voice sometimes echoes around my ears and her pretentious act oftenly haunted in my mind... Oftenly, she likes to act as a cute person which make me feel happy when seeing at her. Just because of thinking of those things, I have been caned and scolded by my form teacher because of not paying any attention but luckily my parents didn't called to come to school. LOL!!! Sometimes, I would call out her name and think of what she's doing at that time. At the same time, I am starting to notice her since the FIRST sight at the girl. I'm going to be mad all the time when I'm trying to find her in the school... But, failing so, I can't find her even I've ask my friends and obviously I'm not going to ask the girl... Although I can't find her, yet I'm not give up and starting to be a spy in school at standard 5. And finally I bear fruit in what I have done, that is I found her studying in class 5P. Yay, I'm very happy with that and I keep my doing my `job' till Form 3. Crazy? Insane? Mad? Umm... my `job' is almost finish till standard 6 and she's studying in class 6K... The day I feel depressed is coming nearer and nearer, which is the day to leave the girl --->>> The School Ceremony. That day comes... my heart is just like deep into the sea forever but to make it just like nothing, that's impossible!!! Aww... sad though, yet I'm still getting up my courage, show my braveness and going to find her and tell her "I love you". At that day, I keep following her as she didn't know yet. Then, I became brave and I'm getting ready to tell her about what I am thinking in my mind... But, I'm failing to do so, courage is there, yet the bashful feeling become overwhelming and I felt like my face gaining a kind of hotness... But, now what!!! All my plans have just became a dream that can't be reached, floating everywhere without diection... After the ceremony, it's sure that I'm sad but I didn't cry out because I'm a boy what, hehe ^_^, I'm not easily to show my feeling out. And now only I realise that what is feeling of having the FIRST LOVE, it's damn interesting and somehow romantic... One thing for sure, this is my FIRST LOVE!!! FIRST LOVE... yeah, but slowly it has change to be the SECRET CRUSH, for me, I feel diificult to breath through the air! What can I do? Being a SECRET ADMIRER or just tell her the truth? Jesus, help me!!! Quite an onerous task for me... Hmm... giving up or fight for the LOVE? Nothing can stop me from LOVE a person even though I lose everything in my life!!!

In a blink of an eye, my `job' which has finished at standard 6 is now continue due to we're studying in the same secondary school , happy man!!! But, the only thing is we are not speaking anything before since our FIRST sight even though saying "hi"... Hey man, you guys will think I'm stupid because of the shameness and nothing is done. Yeah, you're right, but what can I do? Hmm... but one thing that's interesting, the `job' spying is quite a great experience for me, LOL!!! Class 1K, 2L, 3L and now 4M, that's what the class she has studied in Kepong school... FIRST LOVE and SECRET CRUSH both I have experienced, and now what I knew and learnt from what I have experienced is to have the FIRST LOVE is easy, but to be the SECRET ADMIRER like me for 7 years, it might be a difficult task. Is it a shame on me? 7 years being a spy or a SECRET ADMIRER, shame and awful... YUCK!!!

Guys, now more tips are given in this passage, try to guess who's the girl. In part 3, I'll tell you more about my experience... Thanks For Reading, Please Leave Comment!!!

LOVE at FIRST sight

Hello, everybody!!! Hopefully you guys who view my blog will know who is me. Ok, before it, do you guys know what is the actual meaning of LOVE??? May be, some people will think that's a game in their life or just a nonsense in life, yet in my opinion - LOVE is not only an interesting thing in oneself and it also be the most common thing for a boy or a girl. Agree?
Yarp, may be I have gone insane about the meaning of LOVE, but now I'm showing you an example that's experienced by myself and please be serious when reading it.

This is about my LOVE at the FIRST sight when I'm at Standard 4, obviously the person was studying in SJK(C)Desa Jaya before and now she's also studying in SMK Kepong(same school with me). Ok, let's read about my experience now!!!

In standard 4, I'm quite a shy person in 4G class but a naughty boy in the class. If I'm not mistaken, I knew this girl when I'm tuition in Chen Hui Wen (primary school teacher) house for a chinese lesson. In the class, the most noisy is me and may be at that time, I'm a bit willing to talk in tuition class which is different in school. At that time, I have a bad look and may be i have a feeling that all the girls will slowly going away from me. Well, my pre-emption is as accurate as I'm thinking, and probably it does. I feel vey sad though but by looking, that isn't show any feeling, yet sadness sinks in my deep hear. But... one day, a girl has came for the chinese tuition. It's just like a flash light cross over my eyes... and... and...I saw her beautiful cutie face with a sweet smile, quite a same height as me. Although this is just a blink of an eye when seeing at her, but I feel like a very attractive force has attracted me to her. I quickly turn back my face to avoid her eye contact again... shameness is now crossing over my brain... and it's the first time, man! I feel my body like gaining a kind of hotness which can not be stopped at once, and immediately I ask for going to toilet. Aww... stupid idiot, why don't I look at her as long as I can... Later, I come out from the toilet and i have noticed that the girl is sitting beside the place that i sit... `W0W!' that's the only word that drifting in my brain... As I am mumbling`be steady' all the time, haha...haha...may be I'm a bit scared of the girl... After a meanwhile, the girl and I do not say even one word, haiz... shame... (To be continued..)

Ok, let's read the `part 2' of my experience later as it's in progress...

Thanks for reading!!! And I give you some tips on who's this girl mean in the passage, ok... she's studying my class(4 Makmur)... Please think seriously before giving answer on who's this girl!!!

Please leave some comments on it.