No, it isn't, yet one FOOL is PLAYING the SECOND FIDDLE

(clearing throat) Hello there! I'm happy and feel grateful that I can share my story with you guys. Hopefully you guys have a nice day right now, be appreciative of that... Okay, let me give some introduction of my part 4 of my story... I have some question to test you guys as following:

-> Firstly, do you guys wonder why there're several people do not make their first move towards their girlfriends or boyfriends?

-> Secondly, do you guys wonder why there're many people do want to have a close relationship ( LOVE ) with others?

-> Thirdly, why there is less people want to express out their feeling of LOVE to someone else yet trying to avoid it as he/she could?

-> And finally, do you guys know what's the feeling when someone else is having the relationship of LOVE towards your love one? Is it Happiness? Sadness? Dissapointment? Romance? Bitterness? Sweetness? Or others?

Okay, let's begin my part 4 now... Read through the passage beneath see whether you have found an answer for each of the questions above, the real story has began...


28th of July, Tuesday, Sunny and Hazy Day

What a bad day, I have to wake up as early as 6.00a.m. for the preparation to school. Hmm... eating a yellowish egg tart, drinking one cup of Milo, and at 6.45 a.m., I sit on my daddy's car and start `our' journey to school ( so lame )... When I reached the school, just as normal, I put my bag aside and ran down the stairscase as fast as I could... LOL, what I'm doing is just walking around the school compound, without purpose, walking everywhere like Mr. Mad Cheang. Hehe, agree to say that I'm mad, doing nonsense, actually I'm waiting for someone who's very very important. Hey man, very obvious till one of my friend, Yong Jie has told me that she'll come at 7.20 a.m. and which stairscase she'll use... Haiz, after he told me, I have two feelings, one is happy because I get some important information; but at the same time, sadness `attacked' my heart as I didn't even know well about her, not enough concerning about her... I should use the word `dissapointment'... Well, so what? I can know well about her, why can't? Yeah, I'm right, but now only I can say this to myself... Still Lack Of Confidence, just like my friend, Wilson Chiong has told me something useful in my life through his English Oral -> CONFIDENCE!!! Through his talk, finally I realized that there's the only thing I lack in my life. Wilson:" Whatever you want to do, you just need to remind yourself with one important phrase `I believe I can do it', and that's the important point of gaining confidence in yourself." Speechless man, the class just cool down, as well as our English teacher. I'm just like a man awoke from sleep, quite a useful speech from him. Sincerely, thanks, Willy! Again, back to the title, I realized that I haven't find the meaning of TRUE LOVE, I misunderstood the meaning...

After the school dismissed, guess what's happenning? Hehe, so obvious, I kept following her until she went up to the stage outside the school, talking with boys... Jealous, sure lah, some people will be jealous when their LOVE one is talking to someone else. At starting, one of my friend is probably my friend, i meant it, but as I'm jealous of what he's doing, chatting with my LOVE one, and eventually, we have became the enemy in LOVE... A cold war starts, the army with the weapon of swords (me) has started a war with the army with the weapon of machine guns (the boy) secretly... Obviously, I lose... As well as the girl too, we have also started our war since I don't know when she had read through my blog or my mind... I can tell you, this is the most bitter part in the LOVE process whoever will meet with, sure it does to everyone before, right? Hehe, not everyone, just those people who have experienced it before, LOL!!! One of my friend, Tan Kok Sheng has told me:" Si Xian, you no need to be jealous, they're just chatting, jealousy will just make your LOVE one feels like no freedom and tension, and as well as yourself." Yep, he's right, but I'm too oblivious to accept it, how to stop one's feeling of jealousy, impossible!!! Hmm... a good advice for me, I should appreciate it... I should... Action speak louder than words, I have to take action before three of us getting hurt in the war. But, I failed to do so, when my mom's fetching them back to home, in the car, I used to eavesdrop on their conversation... Sometimes, even I felt as angry as a wasp, but what can I do is just turning the volume of radio as loud as it could, it works, but FOR WHAT, to pretend not to hear? Crazy man, again I'm doing nonsense, only I realized there's no TRUE LOVE in my life before, yet one FOOL is PLAYING the SECOND FIDDLE...

Well, my story has to stopped here, hopefully you guys enjoy my story X[). Be patient while waiting for my part 5 of the story... Thanks For Reading - - - Please Leave Comment